I was a room behind the first one and pretty big, there where people scenting. One hanging on a cross like the one here another against a rack and I was shocked because of the beatings.
I saw one person in subspace and it alarmed me, it was really confusing. It was the first time I visited a BDSM club.
It was near to closing time and the members of the club had a tradition of having dinner together in a nearby restaurant after a play afternoon, I was invited to join and there they asked what my impression had been, so I told them about my confusion, especially about the sadism/masochism activities.
That night I found for myself a mentor.
For two weeks He, as a really good mentor, explained me things, showed me different whips and let me experience how it felt on my skin. Then He asked me to accept His collar and frantic as I was, I accepted.
Alcyan: are you comfortable with pain in RL now?
Marion Fadlan: yes I am, pain is strongly related to pleasure, if applied in the proper way it can be a strong aphrodisiac and for sure it is the fastest way to get me into subspace
Alcyan: are you comfortable with RL nudity?
Marion Fadlan: I never thought i would be comfortable with it but it came so natural and I had no problems with it at all. I am not an exhibitionist but I do not care to be nude when everybody else is in a BDSM club.