and change has always been a problem of mine, going from elementry to middle school, going on a plane, its always been to much. I was raised to be this way, but its a bore. Biology is just science, but it has taught me that along with our species, as a human, our lives must evolve, we must face changes and adapt to them in order to survive. My sister, unlike me, is an adventure seeker she faces things head on even when she has to force herslef, shes my inspiration, but never enough to get me to face my fears. A few days ago we were speaking and issues of me being a "scardy cat" came up, all my life I defended myself, explaining that thats just who I am, but I had nothing I no longer could defend myslef for somehting that is part of living. She said to me "dont you wanna be able to set everyday goals and accomplish them, dont do this for me, do this for yourself, reexamine your life". I was scared of those words, I was scared that I was to cowardly and did'nt have enough self-respect to face my fears and change the way I was living, in comfort. But since that day I've made it my mission in life to conquer my fears, one by one, and not only allow but accept and embrace change into my life. Slowly im evolving, but im never not going to be scared. Why? because thats who I am and because fear is part of being alive. But it's not worth living if your not scared of whats coming next.