How many times have I been here? Too many to count. I’ve yoyo dieted my entire life. It wasn't until I posted this declaration on Facebook and attracted my "tribe" that I began to get control.
It ends NOW! In a few short months I went from 145 to 175. This is not the weight I feel best at. I've struggled my whole life with this yoyo weight thing. I am forgiving myself for this situation. I know where it began. I am emotional eater. I lost my job August 15th and started my own business. I've been completely supported but still a gamut of emotions.
I have been saying, "I'm ok and everything is great" when inside I'm really freaking out. All of those thoughts and fears of smallness, not being good enough, failing and missing something that was right in front of me.
I know the number is just a number on a scale and doesn't define me. Or maybe I'm trying to convince myself. I look at my picture from nationals and wonder why I let myself do this to my body. I don't have the answer. I'm looking inside for the knowledge.
I'm proud of the fact that yesterday I took control. I'm taking this one day at a time. Today is better than yesterday. I'm not waiting until January 1st for a New Years Resolution. I'm resolved to do this now.
Want to join me in a commitment to a healthy lifestyle and help each other stay accountable? I created a private group. No MLM's. No selling. Just sharing resources and asking for help.
Posted Wednesday, November 30th.
I had no idea there would be so many others that were struggling the way I had. This group suddenly took on a life of its own as it went from a handful of members to over 200 and growing.
Members are encouraged to share resources, tips and information that has helped them. The group has quickly evolved into one of the most supportive peer to peer groups I've ever seen. Everyone is met where they are in their journey without judgement. Some are there with a goal in the 1 to 2 digit range while others are in the 3 digita range. No matter the number the struggles and support required are very similiar.