Urban Grandstand Digital Volume 2, Issue 1.2 | Page 11

U.G. Digital Mag: People turn their noses up when a woman calls, or they overcharge, but if a man calls, it’s something different. It’s funny too because even as a man, I experience similar things. Nothing so chauvinistic, but people are a joke sometimes. This woman I met on the pretense of doing business is really something else, as Kevin Hart would say [laughing]. It’s really just been a lot of back and forth because to me, she talks crazy as though she’s got an advantage over me, but in the end, she’s asking me for help. When I call myself helping, it becomes a power struggle when it really shouldn’t be. I just leave her for the rest of the world to play with and dispense my time elsewhere [laughing]. But those are the things we deal with in business. It’s all good in the end, but how do you manage to deal with that type of stuff and remain positive? For as good as you get, things do get worse.

Jenn Williams: It takes prayer. It’s funny because right now, I don’t know what I’m necessarily going to do. I have an editing crisis on my hands, and I’ve got a big girl decision to make. Do I want to continue to build with this, or do I want to take my talents elsewhere to get the job done how I want it. It’s all about making decisions. You can't get the ball and not shoot it. It’s in your hands, and you’ll get a violation if you don’t dribble. Knowing I have to keep pushing is the only way I can deal with it.

U.G. Digital Mag: It makes perfect sense. Anyone reading this can take that and really use that advice. I know many people deal with these issues.

Jenn Williams: Right.

U.G. Digital Mag: Where do you see your production company going?

Jenn Williams: I’m really trying to set trends. I set the bar so high that you have to put out quality content to be considered as making noise. I just see myself conquering all levels of entertainment in Ohio, from documentaries to music, videos and all areas. I don’t think I ever want to do radio. That’s probably one of the reasons I do what I’m doing.

U.G. Digital Mag: I was in that same place when I was starting in radio. I was so scared, nervous, and all of the above, that I said I wasn’t going on air, don’t even put me in the studio. And it was the same when I was with WKYC. Looking back, I feel like I had every desire to go on air, but was just scared to do it. Now, it’s like they say in the movies, I’m ready for my close-up [laughing]. It’s only been the last few years I’ve felt this way. I can see it changing for you because the lifestyle you lead, it often leads people in that direction.

Jenn Williams: They say never say never, and I try not to. I just don’t want to ever get to a place that I have to worry about so many people trying to mess with what I have going on. It stifles my creativity. Negativity really stifles my creativity.

U.G. Digital Mag: Right. That’s understandable. If anything, for me, it drives me to do more because I know people are watching and wanting me to fail. It’s sad too because as much as I try to think that it couldn’t be people feeling this way, the reality is that there are people who do indeed feel like they want you to fail. People want what you have, and you begin to see it more, but it’s also motivating.

Jenn Williams: That’s what it is. I won’t lie. That part is definitely motivating. But what gets me is people who are in direct proximity of you. If you can get to me, the reason you can is because you’re right there. I’m very protective of who I let in that bubble. I don’t let a lot of people get that close. I was a little pissed off during the preparation of "In My Mind". There was one cast member who knew everything I was feeling. At one point, I was going through a pretty bad low with my depression. If I’m on a high, I’m on a high, and when I’m on a low, it’s really low. I found that I needed somebody aside from my husband. I thought I had that, but it turned out that I thought the friendship was more than what it was. I was talking about some heavy sh*t, like I feel like I’m going to die.