This of course did not help. So I went back to CAMHS and they said well we thought you’d be okay but we will refer you to someone else because they counsellor I had was moving districts as they do. So then I met Steph.
Steph was good but I hated her. She would weigh me every two weeks and one week I got to a really low weight she said it was 6st 7lbs but I didn’t believe it. Anyways, she wanted to put me on a supplement drink but I wasn’t having any of it so we made a meal plan. Of course I didn’t stick to it. Anyway, I ended up gaining weight again and I was fine. Also, in the process of all this mum had thought she had met the person she wanted to be with for the rest of her life so she moved house again but shortly after they began arguing again and I was once again subjected to domestic violence not myself but I was witnessing it. This made me very suicidal but I didn’t commit or attempt. But eventually I managed to cope and after over a year of CAMHS I got discharged and came off my tablets. I was so happy! However we are now in this month October 2014 and I’m not coping too well so I went to the doctors again and I am back on anti-depressants but a different sort and they are going to be referring me back to CAMHS. I do hope that one day I will finish this story completely and will have a happy ending and I will be someone who you can all look up to and aspire to be and say I did it; I made it through my hard battle and I came out the other end much stronger and wiser like a person I heard of.
I wish you all the best of luck make your story have a happy ending. Don’t just be another statistic in a book for people to overlook. Make your life count, because it does!
I give you all my best to all of you suffering.
Hollie Abbott