TRAVERSE Issue 04 - February 2018 | Page 16

F eeling anxious, isolated and alone, Darren Cook had just had been placed in a mental health unit at his own request. He'd just been released from intensive care after trying to take his own life. That was 2013, at the time Darren was bat- tling the stigma that comes with mental illness and sui- cide. It's an area that many men feel awk- ward talking about, confusion seems to be a common denom- inator. Darren want- ed, needed, to over come this and set about looking for an- swers. He was determined to find an explanation for it all. While he explored his own personal being Darren found an outlet and a way to seek answers in exploring his world. He focused on the outdoors, four wheel driving, camping and trail riding all became his vehicle. This vehicle challenged Darren immensely as he had to overcome a number of obstacles. Just leaving his front door was a mountain he had to scale. Vomit inducing anxiety would quickly take over, fortunately Darren never gave up and soon came to realise that what many take for granted; offroading, was a great way of building mental health. Darren found he was starting to look for ways to live life rather than ways to end it. " I had to accept that I was sick and far from OK," says Darren. " I couldn't believe I was in this place, I made a promise to myself and my chil- dren, that I'd never live in silence again and somehow, I'd navigate my way out of this." Darren realised that he was going through a "shitty" ex- perience and that his life was far more important, for the sake of his children, his family and his friends. His fight back had begun. TRAVERSE 16