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“ The guys from Tora Tora and Todd , Roxy Blue were playing . Everybody was kind of working for the same thing . Pulling together and helping out each other .”
– Rich about the Memphis rock family just sat down while they were playing and I said , “ This is where I ’ m at .” I just took a deep breath and said , you know , everything is on our shoulders right now . Everything world-wise , relationshipwise , everyone needs a moment to take one , deep , breath . The band got the idea and it just grew from there . That was the misconception of not being able to breathe cause of Covid or the political “ I cant breathe .” I really didn ’ t even think of that . When we were shooting the video . They were wanting us to wear a COVID mask , and I was like , No , no , no , no , this is not what it is .
What was it like hearing the play back on some of the sick harmonies to “ Sin In My Heart ?”
RICK : When they played this for me in the rehearsal studio I started jumping up and down . I just started going , “ Dude , listen , listen , this is it .” My band thinks I ’ m insane , because when I hear something like that , in my head , I hear it completely finished with layers of sounds and textures and everything on it . It sold me right and there when they played it . The line in there is , you know , my better half at that time was always looking at me and I ’ m like , you just kind of trust me on this . You know , I know I ’ m insane . And I know I ’ m a little crazy , but just come on . Just take a chance and go for a ride and see where it goes . It was just a punch in the face . It ’ s a record . I you don ’ t catch this hook , you ’ re a stupid man .
Talk about the Memphis scene and the tight bunch of bands including your buddy Todd Poole .
RICK : That ’ s one of the things when I first put this band together . I started out in Knoxville , and then I moved to Nashville . Everyone was telling me you need to go to LA ‘ cause that ’ s where all the record labels are . I ’ m in Nashville , I ’ m with every record label already . I ’ m out in LA , the competition between bands was fierce , it was more like everybody was about them . There was no camaraderie . When I got to Memphis . I came down here for a showcase . We got thrown in the middle of it because one of my best friends ever , Randy Mike Fields was in a band and they got bumped to a later schedule for us to get put on the bill . We became friends . The guys from Tora Tora and Todd , Roxy Blue were playing . Everybody was kind of working for the same thing . Pulling together and helping out each other . People though were giving me all different kinds ( Continued on next page )
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my whole career, I’m going to be compared in a negative way. And you know, that can take its toll. But also, I really want to just have a positive effect on the younger generation and make known that if they want to be in a band, and they want to talk anything in the music industry, it doesn’t matter what anybody says, because I’ve been told my whole life, it would never happen, right? Just do it, you know, stick your middle finger up to them and just do it. And so that’s really where I feel like my heart lies when I get these questions. Because I think, well, the most important thing is that these kids don’t feel alone. And they feel like they have a woman or person that they can look up to who’s gone through this or is going through this. And they’ve got somebody who believes in them. I’d love to be that for them, because I never had anyone like that. So yeah, a lot of pressure. But, you know, I’ll take it if I can. Every Mothers Nightmare Concluded I welcomed it and the biggest problem with the record label. All they kept wanting was “Love Can Make You Blind.” We were like, you have no idea what’s coming down the pipe, real street music, that’s what I was calling it, you know, just real rock and roll, Low budget, run what you bring kind of thing, Back in the day, when I got my deal, you had to do a formula, you had to have the ballad, you had to have a look. That’s what you had to do and look like. When the change happened, I got kind of lost there for a long time. I really didn’t know exactly what I should be doing. You know, everybody kept telling me I need to be “Love Can Make You Blind,” but I’m looking at the real world in the real world is far from “Love Can Make You Blind.” So you know, I kept it together, I kept writing, I think I took a year off. I went through my demons that I had to face and lose. I did that and I’m proud of that. Then I had to find me again and then find what I wanted to do. I rolled back to the begin- ning to where I was just gonna have to go back to being me and us. “Epiphany” is a cutthroat track about falling victim to self- loathing. How was it crafted? MEGAN: The lyrics and the writing were inspired by all the hate that I have had online, or just going to shows and being a person in the music industry and being a vocalist. It doesn’t matter how amazingly talented somebody can be, it doesn’t matter how amazingly attractive somebody can be, you’re always going to get somebody who hates you, and is going to make it their point to ruin your day, and for a long time it really did. I’ve really, really wanted to quit, and I didn’t want to do it anymore because I could not take it. And I don’t mean like people just being trolls and saying you’re batshit or I’m used. I’m used to that. But when people were sort of really pushing the knife in and saying some really disgusting, hurtful things about the way I look on a really deep level and my weight, and just, you know, comparing me in a really negative way to other women, I got to this point where I was like, I can’t take this anymore, and my mental health was at breaking point. I really wanted to quit the music industry completely. Then Luckily, the boys in the band are the most amazing men. They are my best friends and they’ve really taught me and 100% can I swear on this? They have told me to not give a single fuck what anybody thinks. And it is the most empowering thing. That’s where epiphany came from was that suddenly that feeling of oh, yeah, I actually don’t have to fucking care about what any of those people think. Because the only thing that matters in life is if I’m happy with me, and the people who I love and care about are happy with me. It really was that moment of just letting go of their bullshit. Yeah, it was a really, really good moment. And that’s where kind of the whole album is inspired from, just getting rid of all toxic people in your life, all toxic things, and just kind of focusing on yourself and making yourself better through it. Can you speak to just how important music was to you and your development, then getting you to the point of wanting to sing in front of a band? MEGAN: It got to me. it was everything. I was raised by a single mom, and there were four of us kids, and it was hard. We kind of had two sides of the coin growing up because my mom, bless her, she couldn’t work. We had lived in a very small council house, in the estate, and it was surrounded by a lot of rough people. But my mum always did the best What were some of the vinyl you used to listened to that gave you the rock and roll bug? Photo Credits: Van Dad Tours for us, and we never went without. Then on the other sort of side of the coin, my grandparents, who happen to live in the countryside and had a really big house and did well for themselves. I could kind of escape from one life to the other where I was, didn’t have much at all, and then had everything I could ever work for. So I saw both sides of the coin. And there’s beautiful things and ugly things to both, you know, living in wealth and living in poor. But the only thing that kind of kept me through it, and, you know, like you said, was my mom playing us this music. No matter how tough stuff got, we’d always go for a drive in one of her beat-up little cars and blare “God Hates Us” or “Ace of Spades” and all of us in the car were like, yeah, we can do this. And it was it was always a positive thing. It was never used as, oh, I hate my life and things are terrible. It was always like, right, let’s get in the car and put some Motörhead on and we have a great time. So it’s always been associated with positivity. Sure. And then unfortu- nately, when I went to secondary school, which I think I’m not sure what secondary school is for you guys, it’s about high school. So what were you like, 15? When you started? MEGAN: Yeah. Junior High. I got really, really badly bullied. I was a loner, I was a metal head. And I didn’t know how to speak to people. So I got really badly bullied and I had to be taken out of school. I was homeschooled for a while. And then I went to this sort of special school for kids who had been bullied or had been ill. And it was there, where I discovered Bring me Horizon. It sounds cheesy, but it changed me. RICK: When I was 7 or 8 my mom took me to see Alice Cooper, “Welcome to My Nightmare” show. Man, I seen the big show, you know, but God, this is this is it, you know, and I’m a Cooper fan till death, So that was probably the thing that did it. Pretty much everything that come down a pipe, back in the day, there was an MTV and all this stuff. Use to be you’d go pick up the new Van Halen record or, Kiss records, Priest’s, Screaming for Vengeance, that was the end all of records. I’m glad that somebody even said, on this record, they heard every influence that you guys love growing up with. That’s flattering to me, too, because I think that’s what you do you see, all your heroes and your rock, the rock peo- ple that you grew up, idolizing. Somebody told me that they could hear little from everyone like Priest, Deep Purple in this record. I was like, well, that’s great. You know, I’m very happy. Somebody sent me a note that I’m glad that people know priest and deeper. Rick appears courtesy of HighVolRecords. Catch The Launch Pad Live every Wednesday Night at 9pm est on 99WNRR. Page 93