Tikkun America RESTORE Magazine Issue 17 Tevet | January 2023 | Page 16

The Beautiful Fruit of Clinging to Him


Pt . 1

I am writing this on my 50th birthday . There was a time when I was only half that old . I invite you to think back with me as I reflect … I am 24 years old and my not-so-well-thought-out decisions have put 1me in a desperate situation . I ’ m a new single parent , but also a newly converted follower of Yeshua . Yes , I was saved into Messianic Judaism . Even so , I ’ m desperate : I ’ m desperate for healing and spiritual intimacy . I want to be fully known , accepted and loved .
You see , up until this point in my young life , I have independently and often rebelliously made every decision by myself and for myself .
It ’ s my junior year of college , at the 4th university I had attended . I am absolutely burned out on really bad relationship choices . And on top of trying to finish school this time , I am now trying to navigate what it means to be a single parent . All of my decisions up until this point have brought me to this place of desperation — I don ' t like where I am or who I have become . I had relied on myself and I thought that being independent was a good thing ? Until my eyes were opened .
What is the fruit of all of those poor decisions ?
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