Life Goes On . . . By Toria Simmons
It all started five years ago , I lost my husband to the military , he loved his job , he served his country and he died protecting it , before he thought about joining the Army we lived a good life , he was a school teacher , I was a nurse , we didn ’ t have any kids at the time , life seem great and we had no worries , a year after we bought our first home , I gave birth to our first born daughter , ( Roxy ) then ten months later I became pregnant with a another handsome baby boy , ( Remy Jr ).
Two years later we finally had our third ( Ra ’ mone ), after Ra ’ mone was born Remy was called to fight war in Afghan , I was furious of course , I didn ’ t want him to go , I just gave birth to our son and the kids were under three , two weeks after the baby and I were home , Remy was deployed .
I cried for three weeks , I didn ’ t have any help with the kids , my family stayed so far away from us , including his family , I had my close friends and neighbors but it wasn ’ t the same without him , I didn ’ t go back to work after Ra ’ mone was born , I became a full time mom , we had enough money in the bank to last for two years and after that Remy would be home and everything would go back to normal , so I thought , at first I cried for three weeks then I got over it , my best friend Sam came and spent a month with me , my mom flew from Los Angeles to help out and my mother in law came a couple weeks later , everything started looking up even though , I quit my job to be a full time mom and I home school my two kids , my husband calls me every day and we try talking as long as we could before the call dropped .
We would talk everyday around 7:30pm , what a great feeling , the kids missed him terribly and I did as well , I needed my husband here with us .
After six months of Remy being gone , I was still maintaining all the bills and everything else that came first in our household .
“ It ’ s been crazy over here ; they have us going through towns looking for survivors and its bad baby ”
( Helicopters passing )
Eight months later I found out I was having my fourth child , ( what a big surprise ) this time without Remy being here , he didn ’ t know at the time we were expecting another child .
Never seen it coming , three kids and pregnant with the fourth , my baby boy is ten months to this day . My son and daughter are a hand full , the ten month old mimics them both , and this fourth baby will either make me or break me , looking at my future I will probably give up nursing .
I hired a nanny to help out around the house ; weeks have past and my stomach have grown tremendously , finally , after two weeks of not hearing from my husband , I got that call …
“ Hey baby , I miss you ” “ I miss you too love bug ” “ What took you so long to call me ?”
“ How are my children ”? How ’ s everything , are you getting the money that ’ s being sent to our account ?”
“ Yes baby , ah ; I have something to tell you ” ( Scratching my head ) Remy paused for a few seconds … “ Honey what it is ”
I lift up my shirt ; Remy eyes widen and his mouth dropped .
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