The Word of God in Romania 1999.12.04 - The Word of God at the Feast of the C | 页面 7

1999.12.04
loosened and broken and it will fall down, and the burden which is on it, will become dust». The
seat from Târgovişte is a clean seat, and I wanted to sit on it, and I sat, and You pulled me out
from it, because I did not do Your will to be cleansed for it and to love what You love and to believe
what You do and to open for You when You knock. You knocked and knocked, but I did not open
for You, and I wanted to be unfaithful, knocking with a word of slander at those who carry You as
Your coming word over the earth. All I have sinned for as long as sixty years of my life in the body,
was not so heavy when You sent Your angels to measure Me, compared to how heavy it was the
sin of My opposition against the little garden of Your word from Pucioasa. You sent Your angels
to measure me when they put me to whitening by sufferance, but I was stiff-necked when I heard
You knocking for Me to open for You. I would have been the greatest of the brothers of the church,
if I wanted to become a saint, so that I may receive with faith Your word for the preparation of
Your coming with a new age. However, I did not want it, and You pulled me out and put me into a
furnace. You took compassion on me afterwards, for You gave an order before My leaving the
body, and a son from Your garden came to my bed of sufferance and took me into his arms, praying
secretly to You for my forgiveness, for those in Your garden are merciful like You, Lord, as they
are clean children in their hearts and body, in nature and in spirit. However, I denigrated them
before the people, to glorify myself, and You wrote in the Scriptures: «The one who speaks from
himself is seeking his own glory”.
I, and the entire church, left everything to unbelief for Your coming into the little garden
with the sons anointed with a new anointing. I did what the unfaithful Israel did when Ezekiel,
Your prophet, came out in front of the citadel of Jerusalem with a citadel into his arms to prophesy
for You and for it, and I was unfaithful and stiff-necked, standing against the Holy Spirit, Who
breathes from Your mouth over the manger of Your word from Pucioasa. Now I am crying and
sighing when I see and hear how the heaven resounds with the name of this citadel in which the
manger of Your word has its dwelling. If You want, tell those in the garden to ask You to wipe out
My crying and sighing, so that I may not carry it forever, for You are the Father of eternity and
what little faith is on earth! I played myself with death, with unbelief, for I fastened myself in a
strong place and I fell down, and I fought against the light and I was overcome by it.
I am frightened when I look at the one who set this stone, as I put chains over him, and the
sufferance of his heart is great. (The bishop Irineu of Bistriţa, r.n.). I put him down and I exalted
myself; I brought him to humility and I glorified myself; I left him poor and I wanted to be rich,
but he is blessed by those in heaven, for the one who humbles himself, is lifted up by those in
heaven. I am ashamed by my own deeds. I put him down before the church, before the world. I
brought him into submission of my will and I brought him to wipe out Your name, Lord, from this
stone. But who is he who can stand against You? His pain is great, for the one who is over him in
that city, puts pressure on him and puts him to the worse and makes him cry, for the church on the
earth is not what it has to be, but rather it is ruled by the man of vain empty, who knows God’s
will but does not set it on him so that the church may be a church with holy shepherds to shepherd
it. It happened as with the gypsy who was asked by a master of sheep if he likes cheese, green
cheese, lamb and wool; and he said that he likes it, but when the master asked him to go with the
sheep to pasture them he did not like it anymore.
Behold, I condemned an innocent soul and I set myself to judge the one that I knew, and
then, You, Lord, reversed my judgment against me. I saw in heaven a saint who told me this:
“When I was in my body I did not work much for my soul, and when the angels came to take my
soul, seeing that I was pulled on the left side because of my sins, I said this to the angel who put
before me everything I did: I admit I did all these, but Christ, the Lord, said this: «Do not judge
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