The heaven – the throne , the earth – the footstool , the man deified
You prepare such a heavenly delight on earth , oh , these need to have faith like Your saints , who by their faith have earned Your promises for the faithful and holy ones with their faith and its works , even if for a little while they were among the sinful on earth , just as I was , but with high ranks among those who live in sin and for sin , until You changed my way and drew me to the things in heaven with my heart and the things in it , which tormented me so much by that time .
Oh , I took my sinful body and carried it to the wilderness , beyond the land of the people , and I made the wilderness into a church of the saints , and the saints and angels served with me when they saw the flame of my longing and my new love , in which You were burning fully , after I had left the world and loved only You , and with such great love I cried over those I had caught by my feeling full of sin against me and against them in my time on the men ’ s earth , and then the new earth became for me the wilderness where I went by my running from sin and from people to be able to put an end to my weakness for sin . A man who went wrong and was ignorant in his spirit , such a man , like those who worship today , such a man understands that only some places are holy and are for worship and he goes there and worships in them or before them , and other places are not like that for him . On the other hand , a man with a discerning spirit , seeing and perceiving , knows that and he has God and His angels always with him , and he has them in the spirit and truth , and this is how he worships . He has got always with him the holy things , which he works and he does not have to go after them in order to get them , for You Lord , two thousand years ago You said that the time would come when the people would no longer worship in Jerusalem or in the temple there or on some other known mountain , but they would worship in spirit and truth , that is always , always and all over , with their life dedicated to God , and they will worship nowhere without God , without Jerusalem , without temple , without angels , without a carried cross . Oh , this is how I made Jerusalem out of my place in the wilderness and I gathered near me saints and angels at service for You , Lord , and I loved You always burning in Your love and I had the heaven and the earth with me and I saw in heaven and on earth , I also saw before and back and I was learning everything that was set on earth from You to be known in heaven , and I knew the Scriptures , I knew the history of the saints and then I knew the course and the condition of the people and I was learning as in a school and saw everything one after the other , and I saw even my life with sin in it and despised it very much , after I had seen what I loved , what I saw my sin always biting my spirit and body little by little .
I had remained without a garment after such a hard time in the wilderness , but I had no longer thought of me at all , not even a little bit , but only of You , Lord , and You were my garment and glory , and You were my spending with the church of angels and saints , and my place of complete self denial was my new heaven and earth , for I was suffering all the time when I was dressing up for fornication and for men . The woman who wants to look well , who rejoices to have new clothes and all kinds of things that draw to her all the looks around , that one does not have a clean heart for God , even if she may be a Christian in some achievements or some fleshly needs , for the heart is that where God has to dwell , and if the woman ’ s heart sets a man into it then there is no other place for God , but there is only anxiety and restlessness , after a woman gets inflamed in her heart for someone on earth , and this is a devilish feeling .
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