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COMMENTARY
Moral Theology : A Prayer for Stillness
October 10 , 2017 | The Valley Catholic
By Rev . Ron Rolheiser , OMI
Theologian , teacher , award-winning author , and President of the Oblate
School of Theology in San Antonio , TX
Be still and know that I am God . Scripture assures us that if we are still we will come to know God , but arriving at stillness is easier said than done . As Blaise Pascal once stated , “ All the miseries of the human person come from the fact that no one can sit still for one hour .” Achieving stillness seems beyond us and this leaves us with a certain dilemma : we need stillness to find God , but we need God ’ s help to find stillness . With this in mind , I offer a prayer for stillness . God of stillness and of quiet … Still the restlessness of my youth : still that hunger that would have me be everywhere , that hunger to be connected to everyone , that wants to see and taste all that is , that robs me of peace on a Friday night . Quiet those grandiose dreams that want me to stand out , to be special . Give me the grace to live more contentedly inside my own skin .
Still the fever I inhale from all the energy that surrounds me , that makes my life feel small . Let me know that my own life is enough , that I need not make an assertion of myself , even as the whole world beckons this of me from a million electronic screens . Give me the grace to sit at peace inside my own life .
Still my sexuality , order my promiscuous desires , my lusts , my polymorphous aching , my relentless need for more intimacy . Quiet and order my earthy desires without taking them away . Give me the grace to see others without a selfish sexual color .
Still my anxiety , my heartaches , my worries , and stop me from always being outside the present moment . Let each day ’ s worries be sufficient onto themselves . Give me the grace to know that you have pronounced my name in love , that my name is written in heaven , that I am free to live without anxiety .
Still my unrelenting need to be busy all the time , to occupy myself , to be always planning for tomorrow , to fill every minute with some activity , to seek distraction rather than quiet . Give me the grace to sit in a quiet that lets me savor a sunset and actually taste the water I ’ m drinking .
“ All the miseries of the human person come from the fact that no one can sit still for one hour .”
Still the disappointment that comes with age . Soothe the unacknowledged anger I feel from not achieving much of what I ’ ve wanted in life , the failure that I feel in the face of all that I ’ ve left untried and unfinished . Still in me the bitterness that comes from failure . Save me from the jealousy that comes unbidden as I begrudgingly accept the limits of my life . Give me the grace to accept what circumstance and failure have dealt me .
Still in me the fear of my own shadow , the fear I feel in the face of the powerful , dark forces that unconsciously threaten me . Give me the courage to face my darkness as well as my luminosity . Give me the grace to not be fearful before my own complexity .
Still in me the congenital fear that I ’ m unloved , that I ’ m unlovable , that love has to be earned , that I need to be more worthy . Silence in me the nagging suspicion that I ’ m forever missing out , that I ’ m odd , an outsider , that things are unfair , and that I ’ m not being respected and recognized for who I am . Give me the grace to know that I ’ m a beloved child of a God whose love need not be earned .
Still in me my false fear of you , my propensity for a misguided piety , my need to treat you like a distant and feared dignitary rather than as a warm friend . Give me the grace to relate to you in a robust way , as a trusted friend with whom I can jest , wrestle , and relate to in humor and intimacy .
Still my unforgiving thoughts , the grudges I nurse from my past , from the betrayals I ’ ve suffered , from the negativity and abuses I ’ ve been subject to . Quiet in me the guilt I carry from my own betrayals . Still in me all that ’ s wounded , unresolved , bitter , and unforgiving . Give the quiet that comes from forgiveness .
Still in me my doubts , my anxieties about your existence , about your concern , and about your fidelity . Calm inside me the compulsion to leave a mark , to plant a tree , to have a child , to write a book , to create some form of immortality for myself . Give me the grace to trust , even in darkness and doubt , that you will give me immortality .
Still my heart so that I may know that you are God , that I may know that you create and sustain my every breath , that you breathe the whole universe into existence every second , that everyone , myself no less than everyone else , is your beloved , that you want our lives to flourish , that you desire our happiness , that nothing falls outside your love and care , and that everything and everybody is safe in your gentle , caring hands , in this world and the next .