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Confession Series Reflection Our Scared Straight Encounter by Fr. Richard Colbert, c.pp.s. On Wednesday, May 6, Fr. Timothy Armbruster and I were invited to participate is an intense five hour workshop at the Western Reception Diagnostic and Correctional Center in St. Joseph Missouri. Our group was comprised of five probation officers, ten male parolees, and eight resident offenders. After introductions, one leader, Samuel, began his portrayal of prison life within the walls. His language was blunt, saucy and street-wise. He emphasized the necessity for truthfulness, honesty, and respect in our workshop. I was not clear about the dynamics at first, but soon realized the focus of this event was targeted to the ten parolees present. After the talk, we took a graphic tour of the institution to places not open to public access, including one of the dorms. Reconciliation as Honesty with Self More Conversation with Beth Heidler by Fr. Keith Branson, c.pp.s., Publications Editor Many of us know of religious communities where many retired members live together. They may have access to Confession regularly, even twice a year, and generally don’t think they need it. We can be somewhat taken aback by the attitude, for they sit in cliques at meals, will not participate in activities their personal unfavorites are at, will not share rides to personal errands or activities, and generally demean those who are “other.” It’s easy not understand why religious don’t see such prejudice as a sin, like other such prejudices are. In talking about the expectations of Confession, Beth talked about many questions she never got from the other side of the partition, especially such as: “Have you made peace with this person?” “Have you apologized to that person you’ve harmed?” “What can you do to make the situation better?” “How can you repair the pain of this situation?” Karl Menninger once asked what happened to our sense of sin? For Beth, Confession is about the courage to be honest with yourself. It’s about “recognizing the false self and looking to get ride of it...when you become interested in living you true self you are closer to living the image of God in us.” Her take on Teilhard de Chardin is: “Our unwillingness to cooperate with God is the meaning of sin.” One of the great challenges she spoke of is that one can go to two different confessors with the same sins and get two very different responses. Another challenge for her especially, like most women, was going to a male priest to speak about intimate matters; women generally prefer to speak with other women about very personal things in their own lives. The priests she thought who were most helpful in her experience were ones who were aware of their own brokenness. Recognizing that in Confession both penitent and priest have baggage, and we can’t get to all of it in one session, is important. For Beth, the important aspects of Confession are insight, honesty, regret (sorrow), understanding it’s continued on next page The New Wine Press • Page 10 • July 2015 Inside the dorm, we saw eight people in cots in one of the pods, four of them sound asleep. Someone in the gathering resident crowd dubbed me as “Pops.” While his tone sounded friendly and joking, I heard him clearly enough. We got heavy moldy whiffs of the lingering residue of nicotine and other clingy odors from the present and others embedded from ages past in that pod. Next, we were taken to one of the small shower rooms. We could readily visualize the potential for violence or physical attacks therein. Tragically, an incident can occur within seconds before a rescue would happen, perhaps a few minutes later. I’m sure our parolees understood precisely why this site was on our tour. We returned to our original meeting space and listened to the participants expressing their reactions and impressions. Then more resident team members shared stories of living inside the walls. We were served a simple brown bag with the fixings for a cheese and baloney sandwich and an orange, with beverages available in several soda machines along the walls. The second half of this intense program focused on our ten parolees. Each man stood up in the circle, aware we all had read a sketchy summary paragraph describing his public record. The pointed questions and comments from probation officers and resident offenders made it profoundly clear how vulnerable and unseasoned they were when interacting with this intimidating, focused crowd. While some tried to be evasive, make excuses, and deflect unsuccessfully, these verbally skilled probation officers and offenders directly challenged their every word, especially when they tried to use double talk excuses for their crimes and addictive behaviors. It was powerful, humbling and awesome to observe this intense process. Now I understood how those earlier talks, tours, and smells seemed to have disposed them for the impact of their interviews. As clergymen, this workshop had an impact on Timothy and myself. At the closure, some of these offenders and pr