Rudolph Hess
The Mistery of Belicena Villca
Note Memorize the name and address of your contact and deliver this letter to the
SS Oberführer Papp , who is ordered to destroy it . Nothing should be written that may compromise you , compromise us or compromise the Thulegesellschaft .
Heil Hitler . I read the letter twice and then gave it to the SS Oberführer Papp who destroyed it before my eyes by setting it on fire with a lighter . – Rudolph Hess , is he in Berlin ? --I asked . – No . He is in Berchtesgaden with the Führer . I immediately remembered that on that same date , four years earlier , we were with Dad and Rudolph Hess in Berchtesgaden . So there was nothing more to do in Berlin and , after saying goodbye to the SS Oberführer Papp , I left for the railway station to start the journey to East Prussia as quickly as possible .
Chapter XIV
An hour later , from the window of the northern train , I watched the last districts of Berlin go by . I was lost in thought about Rudolph Hess ' letter and regretting not having been able to interview him to convey some questions that required an urgent answer . Something extraordinary was happening to me for some time and , except for Rudolph Hess , I did not dare to entrust it to anyone .
Since graduation night , when I was introduced to the Führer , I began to experience a curious psychological phenomenon . In that occasion I answered " YHVH-Satan " to the Führer ' s questions , who is the Enemy of Germany ? Who are we fighting against ? And I thought I recognized that this answer had not been reasoned by me , but " caught " or something like " heard " with an internal ear .
For me it was beyond doubt that the " Voice " heard was foreign , that is to say that it came from outside my conscience . But I also understood the impossibility of transmitting this experience to another person without risking to inspire mistrust about my sanity . During the trip to Egypt I meditated on this and arrived to the conclusion that the Führer ' s presence had triggered a phenomenon of unconscious discharge being the Voice heard simply a formal intuition . In other words , somehow I " knew " the answer and , in a moment when I was psychologically blocked by the overwhelming personality of the Führer , I " guessed " or thought I did , taking an intuition for an extrasensory perception . It was a skeptical conclusion but I had the assurance that the said phenomenon would be purely circumstantial , that it wouldn ' t happen again . I clung to this certainty with the hidden fear that its repetition would imply a loss of rational balance .
It is understandable : in a society that considers " normal " what is common to all , that is to say , collective , and represses with alienation those who deviate from the " normal ", feeling different can be dangerous in many ways . Mainly because the lack of " patterns " or " models " – eliminated systematically or self-eliminated by fear-- to compare our " abnormality " leads us to fear a loss of reason . This fear of possessing gifts or virtues that make us different from others is considered a " holy prudence " in a world that glorifies the mediocrity of the average man and distrusts the individual .
So , fearful of the implications of considering that experience as a real phenomenon , I attributed the Voice heard to a projection of the unconscious on the conscience .
However , the phenomenon was repeated and not once but several times , with the consequent alarm on my part fearing to suffer from some kind of schizophrenia .
But , as soon as I cast aside my doubts and meditated serenely , I could not stop recognizing that this phenomenon was far from dangerous and I would say that it was even nice . The reason for such a conclusion was in the " certainty " I felt now that the Voice heard was totally alien to my own being . Of course , it can be argued that the " certainty " that a man can have in the perception of phenomena belonging to his own sphere of consciousness is totally subjective . And it is true because , in general , " certainty " does not guarantee by any means the truth of his statement .
For example when the hunter feels " sure " to hit his prey and misses the shot or when the student is “ sure ” of having given the adequate answer and checks that the Professor has given a zero score it can be said that certainty has " failed ". On what then does success depend if when I am " sure " to get it I can fail ?
In order to answer , a distinction must first be made between " subjective certainty " and " objective certainty ". The first is closer to the imagination and the second to reality . Subjective certainty rests
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