Reinventing Yourself
Reinventing yourself, now some maybe asking why, shouldn't you be comfortable with whom you are? Yes, but think about it from this angle, are you still the same girl you were at 16? Did your taste change as you got older? Are you still stuck in the day glow colors of the 80's. Most likely you answered no to these questions.
As we get older, we change; sometimes reinventing yourself is needed, so you are comfortable with yourself. That is what I am doing. I am losing weight for myself; it is first time I ever done that. As I am losing, I realized, I want to reinvent my style. I want to be seen, not hide. When I say hide, I mean I just existed. I didn't take pride in myself, now I want to.
I know part of my hiding had to do with the emotional and mental abuse my ex-husband put me through. When you hear you’re worthless. He refused to go out with me in public and would not introduce me to his friends and family, it does something to you. He used tell me I was beneath him. At one point I believed it, and my pride in myself went out the window. I lived through that abuse for2.5 years. I think what made it worse was he is a physician, so he would diagnose me, he would convince me I had issues. I didn't have the issues. It was just part him and using me for the green card.