The Lovely Pink Diva The Lovely Pink Diva | Page 17

that deal. Anyway, I took a photo to send to my friends of the new do. I really liked it and decided to make my Facebook photo. It was when I was uploading it; I realized the difference in my face. I see my face every day obviously, but I have not noticed a difference. It was until I had the old picture next to new one that I saw it.

My face is rounder in the old one. The new one, you can see my cheeks are more define. I know I am pretty, but seeing that I actually feel pretty. I never really feel pretty. Seeing that, I guess it because I feel the satisfaction of losing weight for me and it is coming off, that is making me feel pretty. When you feel pretty the confidence goes up.

I put the photo up on Facebook, one the guys who I am friends with commented on how good I was looking and asked, Why are you still single? I know the reason. I had to heal my heart after what it went through in my marriage. I had to get myself back, get my diva to emerge. I tried dating, but I know I rushed into dating, trying to prove I was worth being with. Thankfully, the guy I did that with understood I wasn’t ready to date. We are friends and still are to this day. I did need him at the time to show me that I am a woman that is worth being with. It was something my friends could not help me with. I needed a man to help me with that.

Another reason, I didn’t like being overweight, but I didn’t do anything about it either. I know that is because of being forced to lose weight by someone. When you’re forced, you will rebel, and do the opposite. This leads to you hating it, which was what happened to me. My ex would make me weigh myself every day; there were no excuses for weight gain. I still have the charts he had me do. I had to write down my weight on a chart that was hanging on the fridge. Why