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your biggest fight with yourself is whether you should leave
the known or escape to the unknown. Let me help you resolve
that fight; the unknown is sometimes better than the known,
especially in this situation.
When I was twelve I was covered in black and blue from
abuse. I had enabled it for so long that I felt he was the only
person who would love me. I had to lie to every person I loved
in order to fight the fear of being yelled at or getting told I was
stupid. One day the blow was far too hard. I saw my mom cry
for the first time that day. I told her I needed help to get out of
the situation. At first I didn’t want to leave the known; the
known for me was the abuse. It felt almost easier to just let it
happen and live with the consequences of pain. But the truth
is it just wrecked me down to feel like I was nothing. It took
me six months to be able to stand up for myself and walk away
from the abuse. So I guess what I am trying to ask here is
what if one day the hit from your father is too hard? What if
escaping with Frank is the only chance for you to create a
better life for yourself?
The known is always more comfortable and easier to stay
with. You have had a lot of good memories with your dad, like
when he read you the story about the ghost and made toast in