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"If police started shutting down suppliers...that terrifies the hell out of me. You try and find back up, but you really haven't got it. "I know I'd go back to a very dark place — and I think a lot of people would." Suzette's doctor also told her it wasn't worth putting in a request for legal medicinal cannabis. "He just gave me a look and said it wasn't worth it unless I was paraplegic or terminally ill ... He actually recommended looking for a compassionate supplier." Steven distrusts the government's plans for medicinal cannabis accessibility, which is not uncommon among medicinal cannabis users — even those who access it legally. One of his compassionate suppliers has already stopped producing after police raids. Steven worries he and his brother would have to return to a neurosurgeon who, before medicinal cannabis, told them that surgery was the only option. "If my brother gets the surgery, he's basically dead, or he'll be in a wheelchair," he said. Growers and compassionate suppliers told BuzzFeed News they service hundreds of people with the drug, in oil or herb form. Most of the access is either very cheap or in many cases free. "We are not included," Gold Coast patient Jayde told BuzzFeed News. "They make all of these decisions – governments and politicians and health experts – and they don't ask us, the patients, what we need. Elsewhere, in NSW Steven sources medicinal cannabis for his brother, who has a genetic condition resulting in tumours growing on vital organs. He says he wouldn't access medicinal cannabis legally even if it was available to him, largely due to price and quality: "A month's supply ... would cost two to three times as much if I had it legally. Legally, it would probably be synthetic, too." "The government is telling people that it's legal, that they can access it, when it's not and they can't. "We have been doing this for years — before anyone was even talking about it. But I'm a criminal for using something that has changed my life and that I can't even access legally if I tried." *All surnames have been withheld for privacy reasons. https://www.buzzfeed.com/bradesposito/oz- cannabis-iii?utm_term=.wp54337wd#.ra9mdd3bX