How I Fought My Disease and Won Recovery
ALIQUAM
that continue to carry me through, “Don’t give up before the miracle.”
I am a living testament of that miracle.
To the women, and men in this fellowship, thank you for loving me until I learned to love myself. I dedicate this to you. May we all have the gift of a sober miracle.
— ANONYMOUS
the Journal, Issue #146
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Although the challenges of life haven’t changed, the choices certainly have. I can now choose freedom over sickness, serenity over chaos, amends over resentments, and faith over fear. My disease no longer runs the show.
For me, the true freedom came when I was finally able to take a hard, and rigorous honest look at myself, finally being able to complete and share my inventory after nine painstaking months.
Most of the time this process took place without hope, but never without faith. I knew that having faith was the only way out.
July 11, 2013, was my 16-month sobriety date. As I look back with gratitude, I can now see how my most painful circumstances became my greatest gift.
By consistently attending meetings, turning over my will, taking service positions in the fellowship, working the steps, and most importantly not beginning or ending my day without bringing God in, I am able to walk a spiritual and sober path.
I can finally be in my own skin, and sit with feelings instead of run from them, always trusting that God will see me through any challenges that life throws my way.
That once obsessed and scared little girl who sat in her therapist’s office compulsively blaming former lovers and being told that I was bleeding, and needed to get help, was now a wide-eyed self-assured, dignified woman with hope. I am grateful for the words I heard that first day in an S.L.A.A. meeting
I am a living testament of that miracle.
To the women, and men in this fellowship, thank you for loving me until I learned to love myself. I dedicate this to you. May we all have the gift of a sober miracle.
— ANONYMOUS
addictions have manifested in my life. I believe my sex addiction started at a very around it. My romance addiction was about the illusion of something I created in my beautiful love songs to get high off of; it never kept me in reality.