Fearful of what?
Fearful of their own sexuality. I don’t
understand why it’s an issue. That’s my take on
it, that they just can’t deal with their own
feelings towards their own sexuality, so they
have to act the complete opposite way which is
with a complete lack of humanity.
Were you worried for your son when he
told you he was gay?
Well we were driving and he said ‘I like boys’
and I had to pull over in order to stop because
even though I always had a suspicion that he
probably was gay, when you hear from your
child’s mouth, no matter how gay friendly you
are, it’s a shock. For me the first thing that came
to mind was what kind of world was he gonna
have to live in? It is getting better but there’s
still long ways to go.
What’s the best way for a mother to deal
or process that information?
After I thought about what kinda world he was
gonna live in, I then thought what am I gonna
tell my husband. Because, even though he’s gay
friendly, for a lot of men their son is a reflection
of their masculinity. There’s a few friends that I
told and I needed to process it myself and it
took me a while actually because I went through
all of the cliché thoughts that I think probably a
lot of parents who have gay children go through.
I thought was it something I did was it
something I said all that kind of stuff which it’s
not and I knew it’s not but I had to process that
and I act ually went to my therapist just to put
my mind at ease and also to figure out how to
tell my husband.
Was James very good at giving you
plenty of time to come to terms with his
sexuality?
What he did, which I was really annoyed about,
is that I said ‘Ok, well let’s keep this between
you and I until I tell your Dad,’ because I didn’t
want everybody knowing and not his Dad. Of
course my son went to his school the next day
and at the big student council meeting, they
have in front of the whole school, he said ‘I AM
GAY’. I heard about it and I was like oh my God
can’t you just wait? I decided to tell my husband
instead of having my son tell him in case there
was any kind of bad reaction, I didn’t think
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