While Dolores was in the hospital, her # 1 grandkid brought her Wolfy for comfort.
Motivation To Live
I slept through the first few days in the ICU until I had recovered enough to transfer to the step-down unit. I woke from a deep sleep to the voices of my family, surrounded by my kids and grandkids. My # 1 grandkid handed me Wolfy to keep me company in the hospital. She’ s had Wolfy since she made him at Build-A-Bear more than two decades ago. Wolfy helped. He helped me realize how loved I am.
We say,“ I love you,” every day, hopefully to someone, hopefully more than one someone. My perspective changed in that hospital room when I realized how deeply it would hurt so many of those I love if I didn’ t live through this experience. Motivation.
Choosing Life
I never thought my heart would be anything but broken. I had long accepted this. I lost too much of it, losing those I loved, for the organ ever to be whole. Losing my companion, Butch White Paws, threw my heart over the brink.
When I left the hospital after a ten-day stay, the doctor told me my heart was 100 % healed. My left ventricle was functioning at a normal 65 %, which, according to 2022 research, was impossible. The syndrome is a progressive deterioration with no regeneration, and I was at 50 % in 2022. Maybe this octopus found a way out of the trap.
Perhaps what I experienced was a myofascial release of my heart. The heart is a muscle after all. Perhaps during the time I was in near-complete heart failure, some of the parts with etchings of seemingly permanent grief dissolved, simply cried,“ UNCLE.” Whatever happened, I am going to take the doctor at his word and enjoy having energy again.
We Owe the Ones We Love
I thought a lot about how bad it would have sucked for my EVOLU- TION family to write yet another obituary— mine. We have already lost too many in our Missouri cannabis community this past year. I don’ t want to hurt anyone like that. We only have one heart, so pay attention to it. Always err on the side of caution. If you suspect something is wrong, go to the ER! They will treat you quickly, regardless of your insurance or finances, so don’ t let finances stop you.
Drop Dolores an email, it’ ll brighten up her day! ☺
Dolores Montgomery Halbin, RN, BSN, and Ordained Nurse Minister, resides in SW Missouri. After her husband passed in 2015, she retired from nursing. She worked with the 2014-2018 Missouri campaigns for legalized medical marijuana. She continues as a cannabis reform activist working toward Federal decriminalization through educational speaking and freelance journalism. Doloreshalbin @ gmail. com.
Notice: The information contained herein is not intended as medical advice. The content is the authors opinion only and solely for general informational, entertainment purposes.
Mexican Hot Chocolate
by Stellar Solventless
The Fall Season is the Perfect Time for Hot Chocolate with a splash of Highdrate Zero Flavor Rosin Powder added— for adults only. Sip and enjoy!
Ingredients: 2 cups milk
2 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa powder 2 tablespoons granulated sugar 1 / 2 teaspoon ground cinnamon 1 / 4 teaspoon vanilla extract 1 / 8 teaspoon chili powder 1 / 8 teaspoon ground cayenne 1-ounce bittersweet chocolate 1g.( 25mg) Highdrate Zero Flavor Rosin Powder( it’ s tasteless)
– Makes 1-2 servings x 25mg – Time to make: 10 minutes
Procedure: 1. In a medium saucepan over medium-high heat, add milk, cocoa powder, sugar, cinnamon, vanilla extract, chili powder, cayenne pepper( if desired).
2. Mix together with a whisk, add the bittersweet chocolate and heat until the chocolate has completely melted and the mixture is hot – but not boiling. 3. Add Highdrate Rosin Powder and stir until dissolved. 4. Serve with marshmallows.
Recipe of the Month
Watch for Stellar’ s recipe next month. Meanwhile, ask for Stellar’ s Highdrate Zero Flavor Rosin Powder at dispensaries near you.
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