You: I killed them , Gabe. I killed my parents and my little brothers.
Gabriel: The demon that was possessing you, killed them. Not you.
You looked at Gabriel, tears streaming down your face. You were a mess, but you were done.
You: I’m done fighting, Gabe. I just want this to end.
Gabriel sits next to you, he puts an arm around you. You put your head on his shoulder. As much as you wanted to push him away, his arms felt like home.
You: I’m toxic, Gabe. Everyone I love end up hurt.
Gabriel: I’m an angel, I’m the trickster. Nothing can hurt me as much as I am right now knowing I can’t help you. Uhhh. Let’s go home.
Within a second you were back in the bunker.
Sam, Dean and Castiel runs to you and hug you.
Dean: You scared to crap out of us.
You look down, avoiding their gaze.
Castiel: None of what happened to your family is your fault, Y/N.
You: You don’t get it Cas… they-
Castiel: They’re in heaven. In peace, and they surely do not blame you for what happened back then.
You look at Castiel with wide eyes. Your family was in peace. The only thing you had to do for them was to forgive yourself.
You: I… Thank you Cas… Thank you guys. I’m going to sleep.
You weren’t alone. You still had a family. She wasn’t really normal, she was broken, but you loved her, you protect each other. You fight next each other, if one of you fall, you’ll fall together and rise back up, stronger than ever.
Your family is a wildfire, you can’t catch it, you can’t stop it. And when you think you did, it comes back around, taking you off guard.