Week 6 Blog
Do You Have a Plan?
The Doctor: Yes I do.
Amy Pond: Are you lying?
The Doctor: Yes I am.
(Seasons 5-8 of Doctor Who, a common exchange between the two main characters during the show)
This week’s question of “can you see this being your first job?/could you see yourself here for 5 years?” is one of the most daunting questions for me to answer. The thing is, I am horrible at planning out my future. I have become increasingly spontaneous and curious at just what the entire world has to possibly offer me. This has become apparent in every part of my life. I can’t even plan out my own lunch without feeling constrained by the decision. If I have lunch plans, I dread them all day. I want to be able to leave when I think I am hungry and grab food at whatever place I pass that catches my eye. Having a plan for anything just puts a damper on my day. I’ve even looked into just skipping the country after my internship is over and exploring Europe on a shoe-string budget. There’s so much I haven’t seen and now, as a college student with no kids, husband, or even a plant to take care of this is the perfect time for me to find it all. Everything I do seems to be led by this deep innate feeling that I’m just missing out on the world. I want to do and explore the things I have never done before, both just to say I have done them and so I can maybe discover that perfect fit for me.
So if I can barely plan what I want for lunch today, there’s no way I can know if this job could be a first job for me. Or maybe that gives me the most insight into if this could work for me? Though there’s the constant ebb and flow of the office, I’m obviously seeking more than that in my life. I want to go, I want to do, I want to explore. If this internship isn’t fulfilling that need, maybe I should be somewhere else. I want to be more active in whatever job I gain next. Instead of sitting at a desk I need to be physically doing something, whether that’s working events, working between separate offices, or just standing in the background during a press conference.