The Light After Loss
Early one morning , I felt a brief pressure in my lower abdomen . Upon getting up to use the bathroom , I discovered I was bleeding . At 23 weeks pregnant with my second daughter , my eyes teared up quickly . I called my place of employment to let them know I won ’ t make it in because I was pregnant and bleeding and didn ’ t know what was going on . I headed to the emergency room filled with fear and hope . Three days later I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl born at 24 weeks gestational , the lungs of an 18-week gestation fetus , and weighed 12oz . Her name was Naomi Shivani Davenport .
She lived for eight days . As I watched her survive multiple blood transfusions , various breathing machines , and getting test after test within those eight days , I learned how to be strong through her . She held on . During those eight days , I learned what it means to rely on GOD . We received both good and bad news , and I knew He was with me throughout . It was during that extremely difficult time that I realized how blessed I was to have a village . Family and friends came to see me , prayed for us , helped me out , and were extremely supportive .
Author : Shontae Horton IG : omismother
Email : omismagriefco @ gmail . com Facebook group : Find Light After Loss https :// www . facebook . com / groups / 559829725567567 /
After the loss of Naomi , I grieved , I grieved hard . I was so confused as to why God allowed this for me and my family . I was heartbroken over not being able to experience life with her , I mourned what she could ’ ve been .
Naomi would have been eight years old today . By His grace , through scripture , praise music , and through my praying family , God embraced me , comforted me , and guided me . I have learned that my purpose is to be used by God to serve other women in the same way . Women who are experiencing infant loss or have experienced infant loss and are struggling with giving the grief to God . God is waiting for you to surrender trying to handle this pain alone and he also wants you to live in your purpose , he wants you to find your light .
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