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Reflections I wrote this when I first heard God asking me to rise and follow Him. I dreamt the poem and in the middle of the night I wrote it down. I still have the journal it was written in. Saviour I see you Even re writing this brings me to tears. When He calls, and we answer ‘send me’ we enter a very dangerous covenant with Him. One that we can easily get out of, just by saying that we can go no further along the road of servanthood, humility, trauma, heart ache, sacrifice, love, joy, hope, mercy, truth etc, and He understands because to travel like this is to experience first-hand all that Jesus did, right up to the point of His death. He will release us in love and we go on, but we go on as very different vessels. Touched by His glory. I haven’t asked to be released from my covenant to Him. I see you and I touch your hands, I press my hands against yours and your head leans against my face, I feel the crown of thorns, I smell your sweat and blood. Saviour as I am with you, you whisper to me “I love you this much” As you say “It is finished” your blood and broken body passes the baton onto me. No, my LORD my GOD, it is not finished. I will with all my strength run my part of the race, I will take your risen hope and pass it on. Seeking out new people who will begin to understand the wonder of the cross, I will look through their eyes and see you looking back. All for you LORD I have prayed LORD your will be done. So, as I go from being a full-time priest in charge, to a priest without walls or licence to preside. I am trusting Him. Above all else I can hear your still small voice asking, “who shall I send” Send me . I am hoping in Him, I am leaning my face against His and knowing that it is not finished. Lesley-ann + 21