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STARVED is waiting for you to receive His forgiveness. To repent means to turn in a new and different direction, away from the sin of the eating disorder. You make the decision to follow after God and live in His truth, free from guilt and condemnation, and then you act on that decision. One significant point was when I finally admitted, realized and took responsibilityfor the fact that I have a CHOICE. I did not choose what happened to me as a child and the abuse that I endured but I finally understood that I had a choice about my future and the life that I would live . . . . Every challenge I faced and every hard memory I had to deal with was a choicefor life. I could run awa~ hide, and remain controlled by pain and fear and keep myself in a life of darkness. Or I could trust God, choose to walk it out, and have life! No one could make the choicefor me, and no one could force me into a specificchoice. 1he choicewas mine and is continually mine. And I chooseLIFE! -Allie, personal journal entry One vital step toward repentance is recognizing that the eating disorder is a sin and that you need God to deliver you from the bondage of it. Choosing the control of an eating disorder is turning away from God and His ability to meet your needs. Repentance is turning back toward Him and allowing Him to do His amazing healing work in your life. Nothing you've done is too much for God to forgive. He already knows everything about you and everything you have done, and He loves you in spite of it all! His desire is for you to recognize the sin in your life for what it is and to bring it to 38