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What Art Eaan!, lJt~tJrdtr~? to meet a standard that doesn't exist! "I analyzed an ad with this beautiful woman," Ashleigh explains. "She was very thin and looked very seductive. It wasn't even a real person. Models' faces can be computerized. They put the perfect eyeswith the perfect nose, etc. They airbrush the bodies because the women don't really look like that! Being around other models, you can see firsthand that what you see in the media definitely isn't real!" There's another downside to modeling and the fashion world. It hurts to feel that no one can see past your outer appearance. Yet if that is all you are focused on, how can you expect anyone to see past it? "It was always about how I looked, how pretty I was, how my makeup was done, or what my outfit looked like," says Ashleigh. "No one ever wanted to get real or hear about something on the inside of me." Ashleigh continues, "They didn't want to know me. I had a lot to share. I went to a great school, and I loved to learn, but at that point it was about how little I could eat and how beautiful I could be. I definitely was not in touch with real life. Through numerous media outlets, the enemy feeds the whole world a lie that how we look is all that matters. It just made me completely lifeless and empty." What About Pro-Ana? Pro-ana is a term that has become common among girls looking to the Internet for answers. The prefix pro means "in favor of," and ana is short for anorexia. (The term pro-mia means "in favor of bulimia.") The pro-ana community not only accepts girls in their eating disorders, it also encourages them to continue in their disorders. 27