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5 ‘‘They Treated Me as if I Were Dead’’ Peripheralization and Discrimination ‘‘When I came back to work, some colleagues wouldn’t even look at me,’’ Deborah, the psychiatrist with breast cancer, said, shaking her head in dismay. ‘‘People passed me in the corridor as if I wasn’t there—as if I hadn’t come back.’’ Ill physicians faced obstacles due not only to internal psy- chological states, and interactions with providers, but also to relationships with bosses and other staff at work. Colleagues had to decide how to act toward sick doctors, and did so in a range of manners, approaching them as either doctors or patients. Fellow physicians had to decide whether to reduce the status and standing of these ill colleagues, and could support or avoid them. In turn, these ill physicians’ senses of self were profoundly shaped by perceptions of how others viewed them. From Subtle to Overt: Types of Discrimination Frequently, physician-patients faced and felt stigma and discrimination. A few with treatable, nonstigmatized conditions faced little, if any, bias against them, though at times even they encountered resentment from colleagues. Harry, the war refugee with heart disease, did not think he had confronted any stigma per se, but faced annoyance from colleagues who had to cover his practice. He raised a question of what, exactly, consti- tuted stigma. Doctors who covered for me resented that they had to put in ex- tra time. Was that stigma? No. It was part of their job, but still 127