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I Remember
By Amethyst Green
I remember thinking the world was against me. I remember believing that everyone
hates me. I remember screaming and throwing things. I remember feeling that
things people said about me defined me. I would see people point at me and laugh
and whisper to their friends. I always assumed it was bad,because of what had been
said to my face: You’re ugly. No one cares. You’re stupid. Stop trying. You aren’t
good enough. Nobody. Nothing. These among a million others. I remember feeling
worthless. I remember barely holding it together at all times. The littlest thing would
cause all the pieces to fall apart. I remember my “friends” only keeping me around
for amusement. They pointed and laughed when I got angry. As if my pain was a joke.
As if I was joking when I said I wished I were dead. I also remember a teacher who
didn’t suspend me for my anger. I remember how he reassured me that things would
get better. And then I remember a teacher that saw a spark in me. I remember she
didn’t see my broken pieces but instead that my soul was a masterpiece. She taught
me to put pen to paper and pour out my heart. I remember a teacher who never gave
up on me and taught me not to shut out the world. He taught me to love myself.
I remember a teacher who taught me about perspective. She taught me to feel
beautiful. I don’t remember exactly what they said or did. But I remember how they
made me feel. I remember, I will always remember. ●
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