last thing on my mind . I didn ’ t care about myself , and that made it easier for other people not to care about me . I did not feel like I was alive , only that everybody and everything was passing me by . I felt I was being suffocated by a presence that wasn ’ t even there .
I was completely alone , and nobody cared . It wasn ’ t until after I began dating my old best friend that I began looking for help for myself , and my mental state . He was nowhere near the answer or the cure , and I know that , but he showed me that I deserve happiness , that I deserved recovery , and made me feel like I ’ ve never felt . He showed me love and compassion , and I didn ’ t know how to deal with it at first .
I have struggled and struggled for ten years with mental illnesses , and the one aspect I would want to change about the whole thing is that I wish someone would have sat me down and explained it to me . I did not understand at all , and had been misinformed by the Internet , by the stigma that surrounds mental illness . I thought that all the negative bullshit was true . I was all those negative things . My mental illnesses have hindered me greatly in my life , and it all could have been different if someone would have just talked to me about it .
I still struggle with it everyday , but after being helped by my boyfriend ’ s family and actually getting an understanding of it all , I can see recovery in the horizon . I ’ m thankful that I understand now . It has made me who I am and taught me a lot of lessons , some that I never thought I ’ d have to go through .
The stigma surrounding mental illness is lower than it used to be , as well as the notion that asking for help is “ weak-minded ”. Do not be afraid to ask for help , you cannot control the issues infecting your mind . You wouldn ’ t make someone feel bad about having cancer , would you ? No , because it is out of that person ’ s control . There are multiple ways to help rid patients of cancer , just like there are many ways to stabilize mental issues . ●
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