Beauty in Death
Writing and art by Matthew
Matthew : it ’ s a simple name but it ’ s my name . Even though it ’ s used by millions I have built my own unique story .
In the start of 2014 my parents decided something big . They wanted a divorce . Even though I didn ’ t know their motives and I don ’ t hold it against them for making this decision , the effect still got to me . At first I didn ’ t really notice . It became clear once I noticed I was doing badly in my classes and developed a short temper . I couldn ’ t focus and everything around me was just darker . I only started to notice the growing effects after I took a step back . As time went on , more and more effects became more noticeable . I stopped eating three times a day and only ate when I was absolutely starving . I would only sleep 3 hours a day . My fear of failure became stronger .
It wasn ’ t until I took art as a main hobby that things started getting better . Art allowed me to express all my anger , fear and depression into a physical form . By doing so it let me open up more . Talking to someone I trusted helped me realize that I didn ’ t need to fight this battle alone . There is help everywhere , we just need to open up a little . Obviously all of these negative feelings don ’ t just go away in a day or two ; we need to be patience . I know it sounds cliche but if you give it time the old feelings will die . ●
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