Beauty in Death
Writing and art by Matthew
Matthew: it’ s a simple name but it’ s my name. Even though it’ s used by millions I have built my own unique story.
In the start of 2014 my parents decided something big. They wanted a divorce. Even though I didn’ t know their motives and I don’ t hold it against them for making this decision, the effect still got to me. At first I didn’ t really notice. It became clear once I noticed I was doing badly in my classes and developed a short temper. I couldn’ t focus and everything around me was just darker. I only started to notice the growing effects after I took a step back. As time went on, more and more effects became more noticeable. I stopped eating three times a day and only ate when I was absolutely starving. I would only sleep 3 hours a day. My fear of failure became stronger.
It wasn’ t until I took art as a main hobby that things started getting better. Art allowed me to express all my anger, fear and depression into a physical form. By doing so it let me open up more. Talking to someone I trusted helped me realize that I didn’ t need to fight this battle alone. There is help everywhere, we just need to open up a little. Obviously all of these negative feelings don’ t just go away in a day or two; we need to be patience. I know it sounds cliche but if you give it time the old feelings will die. ●
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