last thing on my mind. I didn’ t care about myself, and that made it easier for other people not to care about me. I did not feel like I was alive, only that everybody and everything was passing me by. I felt I was being suffocated by a presence that wasn’ t even there.
I was completely alone, and nobody cared. It wasn’ t until after I began dating my old best friend that I began looking for help for myself, and my mental state. He was nowhere near the answer or the cure, and I know that, but he showed me that I deserve happiness, that I deserved recovery, and made me feel like I’ ve never felt. He showed me love and compassion, and I didn’ t know how to deal with it at first.
I have struggled and struggled for ten years with mental illnesses, and the one aspect I would want to change about the whole thing is that I wish someone would have sat me down and explained it to me. I did not understand at all, and had been misinformed by the Internet, by the stigma that surrounds mental illness. I thought that all the negative bullshit was true. I was all those negative things. My mental illnesses have hindered me greatly in my life, and it all could have been different if someone would have just talked to me about it.
I still struggle with it everyday, but after being helped by my boyfriend’ s family and actually getting an understanding of it all, I can see recovery in the horizon. I’ m thankful that I understand now. It has made me who I am and taught me a lot of lessons, some that I never thought I’ d have to go through.
The stigma surrounding mental illness is lower than it used to be, as well as the notion that asking for help is“ weak-minded”. Do not be afraid to ask for help, you cannot control the issues infecting your mind. You wouldn’ t make someone feel bad about having cancer, would you? No, because it is out of that person’ s control. There are multiple ways to help rid patients of cancer, just like there are many ways to stabilize mental issues. ●
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