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waits for the real thing and resists that which is close enough. and me, prayed for us, and sent us out. In May 2014, I started having When I decided to leave the church conversations with people about that I loved, I knew I was still a pastor. starting a church called Genesis. Our I knew I wanted to lead and preach. stated vision was to join God’s work I wanted to create the kind of culture of “cultivating new beginnings in all in which people’s latent God-given of us, everywhere.” Those first few gifts could emerge and flourish. And months were exhilarating, exhausting, that is when the idea of planting a and sometimes frightening. That church slowly began to emerge, like was two years ago. We are now a a blazing and beautiful sunrise after a growing, intergenerational family long, dark night. of people who are seeing new beginnings in ourselves and others. After dozens of conversations with Mary and close friends, after Church planting can be a treach- countless prayers of desperation and erous place for someone addicted some excitement, I told Dave and to approval and admiration. I’m the board that I needed to leave to learning to take myself less seriously plant a church. I was forty-three years when attendance numbers drop. I’m old. They were gracious and also quite learning to resolve conflict and stay surprised. Though they affirmed my engaged in a long obedience in the sense of motivation and calling, it same direction, rather than chasing brought up lots of questions for them the next exciting thing. I’m learning and some pain. It happened a lot to explore my joy and also touch my quicker than they thought it would. limits. I’m learning that I really can’t At the end of it all, they blessed Mary be a successful pastor. Solutions 15