of an oxymoron. After all, it was my
self that had gotten me into the mess
I was in, and I was looking to myself
for solutions. I needed something or
Someone greater than myself to shed
some light. Einstein stated it perfectly,
“You cannot solve a problem with the
same level of intelligence that created
it.” Brilliant.
My desperation opened my heart to
Christianity, but I must admit, I was
wary. I had the misconception that
being born again meant God stripping
me of my personality, becoming a
missionary in Africa, and having to
sleep on dirt! It was around that time
that the Lord began to woo me and to
speak in various and obscure ways.
First was through a magazine article
about Michelangelo. The text stated
that when Michelangelo would sculpt
he did not try to create a statue. He
actually saw the finished work already
inside the marble and he simply
chipped away at the excess marble
that was keeping the statue from being
the masterpiece that it already was.
As I read that, the Spirit of the Lord
spoke to me with the impression that
He worked precisely the same way. My
heavenly Father would not strip me
of my personality, but if I would allow
him, He would remove the weights and
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bondages that were keeping me from
being the masterpiece that He created
me to be. WOW. I was in.
I accepted Christ, got planted in a
strong church and began to grow. God
was moving in various area of my life,
but I was still struggling with food. I
sought wisdom in prayer and cried out,
“Lord, what is going on with my food
issue? Why can’t I get free?” Again He
spoke, not through an audible voice,
but I had a knowing on the inside and
heard some thoughts that I knew were
not my own. He spoke to my heart and
I heard, “Food is not your problem but
merely a symptom. Your food “issue”
is just the fruit of an unhealthy root.
You are using food as a COUNTERFEIT
COMFORTER. I had never heard that
phrase before and the Lord instantly
connected the dots. The Holy Spirit
is the true Comforter, but I was using
food as a counterfeit comfort. The
root issue was feelings that I did not
know how to process; rejection, fear,
abandonment, etc. When emotions
stirred I would run to the counterfeit of
food for relief, release and comfort. As
I prayed I sensed the Lord tell me that
I was about to embark on a healing
journey and that He would teach me
how to transfer dependence from the
Counterfeit to the real Comforter.
And so the journey began. It wasn’t
always easy but it was beautiful
and effective. God is good. I was
experiencing His presence as never
before as he led me step by step
through the process of transformation.
Around this time I also knew that my
time in the entertainment industry was
coming to a close. I walked away from
a thriving career in Hollywood to follow