II was no longer eating for pleasure. You see I struggled with emotional eating so this was an ultimate challenge for me. Growth only happens outside your comfort
zone and boy was I way out there! I wouldn't allow myself to cheat because cheating is a slippery slope and you're telling yourself its ok and I knew that I wouldn't be able to stop at just one bite. I remember family telling me “oh one little piece wont hurt.” Will it kill me? no. However, was it worth it for just a bite? no.
Life in the macro world wasn't easy. If i didn't plan ahead, I would fail. At night I would sit down and plan my whole eating for the next day. I needed to stay focused on one day at a time. Sometimes it was one meal at a time.
I set my alarm so I remembered to eat every 2.5 hours. I went to the gym for an hour everyday and 3 days a week it was 2 hours.
I lived and breathed this new lifestyle of mine. I found
myself only talking about my body and constantly taking progress pictures.
It’s safe to say I was becoming obsessed. There were days I felt like a million dollars, and days I felt like I wanted to quit and hide. Days I felt like I made a ton of progress and days I felt like I had so far to go. It was nothing short of an emotional roller coaster.
I continued to keep going with intentions of hitting the stage Aug 7th as a figure competitor . I don't know about you, but I work best with a goal. I needed that end goal to keep me accounted for and to work towards something.
Each week, I was seeing new changes which was the gratification I needed to keep going. You see, when I started this journey it was only about getting on stage and nothing more or less. I actually far exceeded my expectations.
I need to get back to the place of finding my love and passion again. I needed to find balance. So many of us struggle to find that. I wanted to learn to love myself and
my body no matter what. Since I ended my training, I have traveled to Hawaii,
Florida and Arizona with Plexus. I am enjoying life, working on personal development and self love, and taking time deciding what will be next in my life adventures. You see, I'm that person who loves to be different. I love to stand out, make an impact, and go against the grain.
I like to start trends instead of follow them. Getting on stage is not a priority for me at this point but I will tell you setting a good example for my daughter and teaching her to be a strong, powerful woman is. I want to show her what happy and healthy looks like. I want to teach her to set goals and give it all you got to blow your own damn mind. Do it for you no one else.
I want to teach her to put your blinders on, work hard and unless other people are
paying your bills their opinions do not matter. You are given one life. What do you want to do with it?
In just 7 months I was down 7 jean sizes and 20 lbs. I couldn't believe my results. I was the healthiest I have ever been in my life. I however was so happy that the feeling of needing to get on the stage started to disappear. I realized I already won. This battle was only every against myself. I didn’t need to stand next to a bunch of woman to prove to myself where I stand. You are up there to be judged on your final result. The sad thing is they don't know where I started and they don't know that I accomplished these results in just 7 months. So I thought about it long and hard. I knew If I got on that stage I would be picked apart as that’s what you are there for. Why would I want to put myself through that?
It would be like that feeling going into the gym for the first time. I need to keep my mental state strong. I decided to celebrate with friends and family instead. Most people train for a good solid year before they hit the stage. So in 7 months, I found myself in between classes not enough muscle for figure and not the shape for bikini. I didn’t need a stage to be proud of myself. I ended in August with a photo shoot of my accomplishment.