Prison Break
You’re under arrest
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“Get out, get out, get out of the car, put
your hands up in the air, you’re under
arrest!” It happened all so quickly,
from being pulled out from the car,
handcuffed the miranda rights read to
me, in the prison van and off to jail.
I can still remember that day as if it
happened yesterday. I had lost my
way in life and now this was the end of
the road for me. I was still coming down
on a cocaine high but understood
what was happening to me. I was filled
with fear of prison and the unknown.
Alongside those fears came the
worry and anxiety of my children
and their welfare. It all came crashing
down around me. I can’t tell you how
completely hopeless and helpless I
felt. How empty, broken, tired and so
overwhelmed. I just broke down and
cried uncontrollably. There was no
escaping this, no one was coming to
rescue me!
How did I get here?
said something that changed my life
forever. The time in my life when I first
believed God existed. At the age of 6
I knew I was here for a special reason
and a purpose but didn’t have a clue
what that was. I remembered how I
wanted to be a nun around 8 years old
but was never taken seriously, (thank
God for that) I was raised in a Catholic
home but I didn’t know anything about
being ‘born again’ or having a personal
relationship with Jesus Christ.
This lovely woman and I became
good friends whilst in prison and she
organised one of her friends to come
and visit me. This lady was a ‘born again’
Christian and I thank God for sending
her to me. I experienced such love
and acceptance from her. She never
looked down on me but treated me
with gifts and my first Bible! She was a
very special lady indeed who kept her
commitment to me with weekly visits
which I so looked forward to and also
because she was one of the few visitors
who did come to visit me. I saw the love
of Jesus through this lovely lady and I
knew it was the time for me to respond
to God’s gift of salvation through His
Son Jesus Christ. To know that, “God
so loved the world that He gave His
only Son, that whoever believes in Him
should not perish but have everlasting
life.” John 3:16
I asked myself that question many
times. Like a playlist in my mind I would
go through all the pain and heartache
I had experienced throughout my
life. The abuse, violence, beatings,
betrayals, drugs, suicide, rejection,
bad relationships like tracks on my
playlist I played them regularly.
Blaming myself, believing I was a
failure, telling myself I was useless Just think for a moment! If you were
and I didn’t deserve anything better, the only person on earth, Jesus would
was my pattern of thinking.
have gone to the cross and paid the
price for your Salvation. Amazing!
Within a few weeks in jail I settled
down somewhat and as I was walking Despite who you are and where
around a fellow inmate caught my you are now, God loves you and the
attention. I could see she was very demonstration of His wonderful love
upset and crying. I walked up to her was that He died for you right now,
and was given the cue to sit down on right where you are. I wanted Jesus
her bed. Through tears and much pain in my life permanently and to have a
she shared the ordeal she had gone personal relationship with Him now
through. She was so upset relating and for all eternity, I wanted to be
her story to me and I could see and free to do that. “If you confess with
hear how broken she was and I had your mouth that Jesus is Lord and
much compassion for her. She then believe in your heart that God raised
Him from the dead you will be saved.”
Romans 10:9. I was ready and that’s
what I did in the least likely place
WOW! After my prayer I sensed
everything had changed. I was about
to see many miracles. I found out I was
pregnant after a few weeks in prison
and a miracle happened there with
the outcome. I was facing 30 years in
prison but there were miracles behind
the scenes to release me from not only
1 prison but 3 prisons over time. Yes
miracle after miracle.
So what happened ?
After I was released from jail. When
I prayed that prayer in prison I
remembered what Jesus said, He said
He would never leave me or abandon
me, that He would be with me always
and committed to me even when I
would still make bad choices and
resort to old ways. I still encounter
many heartaches and life can get
tough with hardships and pain but
God is my anchor. I am nothing like
the Angie that went to prison many
years ago for God is my healer and He
is healing the brokenness within me
and renewing me in every way. God
is a good Father and everything that
happens is for my good. He just says,
“Trust me” For He knows the plans
He has for me, plans for good and not
for evil, to give me hope and a future.”
Jeremiah 29:11. Being confident of
this that He who had begun a good
work in me and is faithful to complete
it. Philippians 1:6. I pray that you will
be blessed reading this and that you
would respond to Jesus’ love today.
This is the day of your Salvation.
Time is short and the world is getting
darker. I may be the last person God
will use to speak to you to come and
be forgiven and believe in His Son
JESUS and be saved. This is the most
important decision you will ever
have to make which will have eternal
consequences. p
January - March 2018
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