Shantih Journal Issue 2.2 | Page 34

his arms, as a toddler with my little hand lost in his, and one from last year. I’m shirtless and dripping with pool water as he draws me under his arm and beams with pride after my swim meet. I gingerly slide the drawer open and remove his gun, before slipping out of the room. In the fire, the books have nearly stopped burning, but the remaining warmth from the embers meets me at the door. I’ve known where I’ve intended to go for a while, but didn’t expect to go there tonight. I just thought it was a dream that only came to life beneath my bed sheets. Maybe, though, that’s where I’ve been all along, and when I open my eyes I’ll see the bed sheets holding me still, my Dad asleep in the next room and the TV glowing in the dark. Instead, when I open them, I see books burning in the fire. In a way, the outside of the house has changed too. I remember being proud of having the one house in the neighborhood with woo