I keep repeating this . Discussion , arguments , pain , grief , anger , confusion unfolds .
While the story continues , I am told by “ X ” that I have been pushed way way down because of the trauma “ X ” has suffered during her life time . The abuse she has gone through in this lifetime has overpowered her true self and she has lost touch with her inner self — with the role I had thrust to me that I had been so reluctant to play .
When the session was over , I was very emotional and in tears . I now knew why — once again in these three days — I was thrown ( yes , literally thrown ) into these two sessions .
Case one : The savior of the abuse . Case two : The Sufferer / victim of abuse .
In two days , the universe had put me in touch with two extreme scenarios . Both involving abuse ( mainly around women ).
We say in Shamanism , “ the entire universe speaks to us ... if we choose to listen !”
The messages of the calling which I have been asked to listen to , and lead , became so loud and intensely clear .
“ O . k ! I ' m listening now !”
Through various explorations , I have uncovered through both myself and healer friends , that in various life times , I have suffered for being who I am and for coming into my power .
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