My Dearest Sister,
Before you knew what love was, He loved you. God saw every detail of your life. As He formed you in your mother’s womb, He knew every freckle and called your hairs by name. He saw the shame you tucked away within your heart. He saw the guilt as He watched you hide; yet, He still chose the cross.
Sweet Sister, if I took a close look at humanity and saw the unmentionable ways in which they mocked me, ran from me, and betrayed my name, I (as a human) would not lay down my life for the likes of them. I imagine, I would shake my head and walk away leaving them to roll in the muck of life as they saw fit; wash my hands and leave them alone. However, God has a love that is beyond my scope of limitation and refuses to leave anyone without His love.
Darling Sister, He saw the times you betrayed Him, the time you chose to push Him away, and He saw you deny His heart consistently. He died for you anyhow. He tore the veil between limited and limitless so you could come close, no need to stand at a distance anymore. You were the one He thought of when He rose from the grave. Don’t be ashamed, throw off your fear and come running to Him. As you run to Him, what hindered love will only become part of your story.
Please, my Sister, do not quit now, you are almost home. The open arms of your Father’s love eagerly await you. The love of the Father knows no boundaries; it has no limits, and nothing can separate you from the love of God. He created you for love; to love God and love others.
Please remember, in all these things, through the love of God, you are more than a conqueror. I am convinced that neither life or death, angels or demons, the past or in the future, no heights or depths, nothing, absolutely nothing in all of creation can separate you from the love God has for you through His Son, Jesus. (Romans 8:37-39 in my words) While you were lost in your sin, while you were hiding and afraid, He died for you. (Romans 5:8) There is none other than our Almighty Father who loved you enough to send His son to erase your slate. He planned out His love for you from the beginning of creation and will carry it through until the end. Regardless of everything, His love for you is from everlasting to everlasting!
My prayer for you, my sister, is a prayer to awaken His love within you.