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SHADES T his year has been both the best and worst of years. If I had to colour palette this year, it would have every single colour. It would have robin egg blue for the fragile peace I found in ivory sand beaches, for the subtle joys in the smallest things, for hope and love and good things that turned up when I was lost. It would have slate grey for the nights I stayed up, bitter prayers on my tongue, rivers of silent tears streaking my face. It would have bright vermillion for the irrational way my anger flares up when I’m upset, for the irony in this world, for my poetry and my fingers that drip blood onto curled yellow pages. It would have jade green for my insatiable jealousy, for the prettiest of fields that dotted the landscape on the way to the town where my heart lives, for the moss lining the walls and rocks and every little thing my eyes could see,It would have white, for a numb, frozen heart, for blank papers, and emotionless words. And, it would have a splatter of yellow. For the pressed flowers, and the fulfilling of 3 am promises, for the most beautiful souls, with tempered glass hearts and cracks that are filled with the sweltering gold of raw humaneness, for the friends I’m ending this year with, for the happiness that is slowly finding a permanent home in the things I love the most, for the loud waves, and rolling clouds over a golden Marina, for fairy lights and photo-shoots, for heart wrenching conversations and for the nostalgic heaviness that is weighing down my heart, and the faith that this year will be better. VARSHA R 94