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‘From here to Eternity’ About growing old gracefully By Flemming Winther Nielsen The photo shows the author, Flemming Winther Nielsen, as a young, self-confident academic with his old father, Hermann Johannes Winther Nielsen, who died in 1984. Flemming Winther Nielsen died on 21 January this year. I t is one of Fate’s cruel jokes that young people cannot comprehend the life lived by us, the older generation. They cannot understand our inner life, our conditions, even if they take an interest and try; the ‘generation gap’ it is often called. This is the joke and the condition. Apparently a sort of invisible ring is cast around us; we are inside, fundamentally alone. We are left to our own personal struggle, hope and fear. Furthermore, what we learnt in life, our experiences, are of no value in this so-called nuclear society where everything changes with tremendous speed. You may say that your children and grandchildren love you, yes, rightly so, but it is still my claim that they don’t have a chance to understand what is going on inside us. Our fear is not their fear; they are in the bloom of their life, not nearing the end of the road. The first consequence of this fact is maybe grief and maybe isolation if we don’t act and react. We have to get used to standing alone and defend our own positions from there. We can never allow family and next of kin to try to diminish us as old fools who can neither see nor hear, that is the direct route to dementia. But now, let me give a few examples of what is on OUR mind, our invariable peculiarities you might call them with a little glint in the eye. Our peculiarities • For many of us not a day passes by without grappling with the thoughts of our death. For us this comes naturally, but it would not be natural for a person in the bloom of his life. Meanwhile, these thoughts are solemnly between us and His 18 ScandAsia.China • February 2014 Brightness – or His Darkness. • We get acutely aware of our bodily functions, alarmed and consulting the doctor on even minor signs of dysfunctions. We know that the final blow will commonly be related to an illness and we fear that. Our relatives will often regard this behavior as hypochondria. • Many of us get a little obsessed with our dress and our smell, not a spot, no odor, the young can dress as bums, we can absolutely not, and for good reasons we prefer dark trousers. • We try to hide our physical shortcomings, but we prefer an upright dining table chair for the low and deep ‘comfy’ chair offered. We walk slowly and tell our companion that it is because we want to look around, at flowers, birds and bees. • One very sensitive issue is the decline of our sexual capacity. In the blue hours, talking with friends about this, we find the grief and the sorrow. It is difficult to cope with this loss and of course we deeply envy the young couples we meet on our way. Then many of us chose Viagra as a way out, but that is a personal choice and solution of course. • Many of us experience that our possessions lose their value and our appreciation, furniture, even books, the maintenance of the house, we are letting it decline with us. It is a strange to observe that the elegant crystal carafe given to you by a dear friend is now more or less without value. I will give it away. Will to win – born to lose Today we all exercise, young and old, most useful thing to do. The risk comes if you believe your current level of fitness will last; that you can maintain your handicap; still win the matches, in tennis, still score high. The decline will come, like a thief in the night, slowly and almost invisible; we shouldn’t allow ourselves to be surprised by this fact. A friend of mine and of my age, exercised early every morning with four friends. Then he suddenly found out that he couldn’t follow suit. Then he simply dropped out disillusioned –or a victim of his own illusion, that things will last – they never do. It took him quite a while to get back on his feet. To stand upright, centered and unbiased If we don’t want to surrender ourselves to the greasy hands of the public welfare system and the nursing home, but will continue as long as possible as freedom fighters, we have to learn. Already the ancient Greeks and old Buddhism deal with the eternal human problem: How to survive with dignity in times of trouble. The Greek philosopher Zenon was the father of stoicism. From this practical teaching we can learn a lot. Almost interwoven we then have the Buddhist teaching. ($