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2007 ~ 2012 | 98 A NEW CAMPUS AND THE BIRTH OF SASS twenty-one, and I stay in a student residence with three others who are from Sunway College. I want to tell her that I feel everything, too deeply (that I’m a tad dramatic). In Dr Andrew’s class on contemporary fiction, I study the trauma of Akiko and her marginal existence as a silenced woman, labelled as ‘crazy’, with her intimate links to the spiritual realm in Nora Okja Keller’s Comfort Women. I’m twenty-one, and Dr Andrew weaves the connections between memory, forgetfulness and trauma. We study texts like the 1959 film Hiroshima Mon Amour, which intertwines a couple’s present romance with the ponderings of the past, the after-effects of a horrific atomic bomb. In the graphic novel Maus, we explore experiences of a Holocaust survivor and the heartbreak of survivor guilt. I step out of myself to understand the suffering of others, and the quirkiness of the strange and comical Dr Andrew keeps me entertained. (“I need chamomile tea,” he gasps when arriving for our lesson after having braved heavy traffic.) “Do I navel-gaze too much, Dr Sharon? What if my thesis doesn’t bring meaning to others, only to myself?” I’m twenty-one, and on a study trip to Yogyakarta, Dr Yeoh brings his students to visit the Kali Code river community. Children with beautiful faces play along the polluted river, and wizened faces of old women break into warmth when I look into their eyes. I think of God, and my classmate, Abeer asks why I think so often, or why I’m so quiet. In the darkness of the room we share during our lodging, she asks, “Are you still alive?” “Zeena, can you help me buy Milo O ice?” “Then, isn’t that good enough? It makes a difference to you!” ****************************************************************** I’m thirty-one, and I teach English at a college. My students bring me tears and laughter. I practise gratitude for my education, for the pain and pleasure of assumptions and preconceived notions ruptured, for the healing that took place in the form of kindness of mentors, the beauty of travel and listening to stories of ordinary living at the riverbank, and for the laughter at the Monash cafeteria during meals with a friend from Maldives. “Milo O Ice? What do you mean by Milo O Ice? Would you like me to choose for you, Milo or ice?” Cheah Wui Jia graduated with a BA (Hons) in Psychology and Writing in 2011. She also holds an MA in TESOL from University of Nottingham Malaysia (2014). She is currently teaching at Han Chiang University of Communication, Penang. Meeting a resident of Kg Kauman during ISO Yogyakarta (2009). ▼ ◀ In a session on disability during ISO Saigon (2011).