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So, I didn’t go into much philosophy on death and didn’t even think about it deep enough. It’s simple, like, I will never see grandpa again, and it’s so sad and I miss him. So after a while the sadness gradually went away, and I no longer feel sad if I don’t think of this affair. But every now and then when I think of grandpa I still feel sad and maybe even hurt a little. It leaves a scar, like everything else in your life it’s not the best, but it’ll do. I still remember I found my best friend tucked in the corner of the bathroom crying for the loss of his grandpa, and me and his mom worked very to cheer him up. In the end he said, “screw it, I will hold on to what I have”. It’s a damn good sentence for a teenager to say. Time takes everything, especially for teenagers, so we move on like everyone does. Growing older now I come to see that maybe dying naturally isn’t a bad thing at all. For those of us who are near to the dead, it left us very precious gifts, not trauma, not sadness, but memories -- the only thing to define an existence. When we were young, our parents used to tell us these fairy tales that end with happily ever afters or something similar. But we grow older and we realized the world is nothing of the sort. There are terrible things that human race can do, and among all, murder. Even though this idea is dark and unforgiveable, but still, it happens around us, teenagers as well as adults. The influence of murderous death on teenagers is huge and most of the time leads to suicide. On February 14, 2018, the school shooting of Stoneman Douglas High school in parkland happened, 17 students were killed in the massacre. It’s a traumatic experience for the survivors and caused two suicide cases since it finished. The most recent one is on March 23rd, 2019. A girl named Sydney Aiello committed suicide because of survivor’s guilt. Aiello was friend with Meadow Pollack, one of the 17 people killed in the massacre, and she suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder. She chose to suicide when she hadn’t figured out her life as all teenagers do. Aiello is shocked and swallowed by the pain coming from the loss of a friend. So, she simply just gave up, to end her misery and her seemingly meaningless life, but not knowing the vast possibility of her future. As shocking as it may seems, the experience of murderous death of someone close can impact one’s life deeply in a negative way and with such resolute. But not all deaths are murderous death, there’s accidental death that can also impact teenagers. In Looking for Alaska, the main character Miles Halter transfers to a new school and meets his roommate Chip Martin who goes by the name Colonel, and