50 Pratikraman
Gnan? In the presence of Gnan, there is no pleasure or pain. 13. Liberation from Artadhyana and Raudradhyana
Questioner: It is said that two forms of adverse mediations are constantly occurring, one being artadhyan and the other, raudradhyan. Please explain the difference between the two.
Dadashri: Artadhyan involves only you. It occurs when you suffer silently without anyone’ s knowledge. Raudradhyan is when you suffer and others also suffer because of for your internal state.
A person who is not Self-Realized will experience adverse meditation of the type, which affects him only( artadhyan), because he identifies himself with his relative self. He believes that everything that is happening is happening to him. For example, he may start worrying about his daughter’ s marriage when she is only five years old, or the welfare of his family if he were to die. To worry, or be confused oneself is considered artadhyan.
Adverse meditation that affects others is raudradhyan. Here one blames others for his predicament. To think negatively of others, cheat others, or to wish them harm, is all raudradhyan. Say for example a cloth merchant cheats his customers by stretching the material when he measures it. The moment he decides to cheat his customers, he becomes guilty of raudradhyan.
If a person has committed severe raudradhyan, he can turn it into artadhyan by doing pratikraman. If two people are guilty of the same kind of raudradhyan where they both have expressed a desire to kill someone, their inner state for violence is raudradhyan. If one of them goes home and sincerely repents for having such a destructive bhaav, his raudradhyan will become artadhyan while the other will continue his raudradhyan.