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48 Popular Culture Review defined by the focusing of the player’s self-conscious attention on the interaction between his or her body and the surface of the instrument. Rehearsals are experienced as moments of highly directed self-surveillance of the sensing body. Performances, on the other hand, are characterised by a distinct lack of self-attention paid to the points at which musician and instrument meet, to the point that musicians describe performances as experiences of becoming their instruments, or, in other words, of becoming wholly instrumentalised. During my fieldwork, rehearsal periods could, and often did, involve playing music in front of groups of people visiting the institution in which the band members work. Simply playing in front of people did not, for band members, constitute performance. Conversely, rehearsal moments occurred fi*om time to time during performances when band members found themselves engaging in the particularly surveilled bodily engagement with instruments that characterises and defines rehearsal. Band members very often used eating and sexual metaphors to describe to me their own and the audience’s experiences of instrument sounds, and to alert me to the difference between rehearsal and performance experiences. I argue herein that the difference between rehearsal and performance moments pivots on the experiences that band members have of instrumental penetration, which they articulated using other kinds of penetrative metaphor. Each experience is also multisensual. The key to understanding the difference between rehearsal and performance moments lies not only in the penetration that an instrument makes into the body and that the body makes into an instrument, but also in the multisensoiy nature of this penetration. It is the multisensual character of instrumental penetration that Merleau-Pontian phenomenology cannot adequately accommodate. In order to explore this multisensual instrumental penetration, I use the critiques that Michel Serres has made of Merleau-Pontian phenomenology.' Serres argues that Merleau-Pontian phenomenology is capable of looking only at one sense at a time, and does not, therefore, focus on or adequately describe the life of the body. Rather, in Serres’s view, Merleau-Pontian phenomenology is capable of viewing and describing the language that describes the sensual life of die body. Rehearsals and Performances Band members, who are full-time musicians working standard eighthour days, rehearse with what they call “monotonous regularity.” A morning or afternoon portion of each working day, usually some three to four hours, is spent in rehearsal. Rehearsals are all about tongues, lips, fingers, hands, feet, and respiration. A great deal of the players’ self-conscious attentions are directed towards the manner in which these bodily parts and fimctions meet with instrument objects to “buzz,” “blow,” “hit,” “bang,” “tongue,” “lip,” and “breathe” into them. Although these touches administered to the instrument body sound almost as if they are erotically sensuous experiences, they are not, at