Well like I said before in my 4th grade year I remember being teased the most. My classmates would call me “to tall Jones”, “Shaq”, “Deebo”, “Fat ass”, “Ugly Big boob girl” (that wasn’t such a great thing in 4th grade… lol). I went most of the year going into the library during recess because there were girls that would follow me just pounding their fist into their palm telling me that they were going to beat me up. I look back at all these things now and laugh but I do remember coming home and crying my eyes out and what sticks out the most was that helpless expression on my mother’s face. All Mom could do was hold me tight and reassure me how much she loved me and most importantly how much God loved me. This bullying went on up until my 6th grade year, and on to junior high school where I still was the tallest plus size girl. I would hate to participate in PE because I was always being looked down upon hearing the negative comments that I couldn’t do certain things because I was “fat”. Bullying was not as bad in junior high but because of all I went through in elementary I actually looked down upon myself. I thought I was the ugly fat girl that would never amount to anything and never be looked at as a pretty girl.
I never let that insecurity shine through and get the best of me though. I remember staying friendly and smiling and wanting to help out in class, UNTIL, I met my junior high best friend. I remember us becoming good friends because I made her laugh so much. She was very “respected” by the whole school because she was known as a person who can fight and had been in a juvenile detention hall before. She taught me to defend myself from those who bullied me by fighting them. It was then that they stopped teasing me and gained their “respect”. I remember thinking I was on top of the world because now they all wanted to be my friends. Little did I know at the time that my life would take a turn for the worst, I started hanging out with the wrong crowd because I thought they were “loyal friends” and never treated me badly.