Leaving Cleveland: Thoughts and Feelings
So many thoughts and emotions all being felt at once. Like being in the eye of a tornado. There where tons of positive thoughts about this big step in my life and career. Unfortunately, along with those positive and thoughts and feelings came those that were completely negative. Thoughts and feelings I couldn't afford to have even though they were natural to think and feel that way. Moving to a new shelter in the same city or surrounding areas was easy to me. That was something I had done since I was a child. Moving to a whole new city almost 300 miles away was something I had never done before. Despite that, I had no choice but to prepare if I wanted my future to be bright.
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Getting a few more items before the trip.
The negative feelings I had were doubt, fear, sadness and frustration. I was having doubts in myself, my relationship with my fiance and in being able to not have to move back home. I didn't want to have to come back because of some outside source and be there longer than I wish to be. I didn't want to ruin the bond my fiance I have and then suffer for it later. I was doubting myself the most because what if I fail at those two things and at my career? I've had to push those thoughts and feelings out of my heart and head. They were extremely unhealthy and it would be my own fault if I were to allow those things to hinder what I'm more than capable of doing.
Once I was able to handle that, the excitement in me grew exponentially. I was excited for what this transition had in store for me. Though I would still need a 9-5 for a short amount of time, the amount of projects I'll be able to begin will seem as though I have two jobs. In reality, I would only have one. My passions don't make me feel as though it's a job because I enjoy it that much.
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