Pauza Magazine Summer 2006 | Seite 9

Senioritis of a Different Type By: Rachel Wilkinson, Mak 8 The nights this summer don’t seem as hot as the year before. However, there are a handful of nights where I lay in bed, sleep stolen by the oppressive stuffy heat, and I follow my wandering mind. The other night, it led me to this startling fact: I’ve been a Peace Corps Volunteer for nearly 35 months. I’m now 25, and just the slightest bit wiser. In these past three years, I’ve been through so much that I’m no longer the same person, and I’ve done a lot of growing up. Living in Macedonia has shaped me in so many ways, and given me plenty of interesting anecdotes to share with people when I’m 70. The Florida girl sees snow for the first time in 15 years! MAK 8s Anniversary - Kocani, September '04. Little did I know that in July 2003, when I accepted my invitation, that the country I’d be serving in would become my home. I kept myself very open-minded about everything, even to the fact that I could quit and go back to Florida whenever I wanted. But I also told myself to try and stick it out for the entire 27 month period, no matter what happened. Sometimes it’s amazing to me how I’ve stayed 8 months more even though I’ve had some truly terrible times. It was here in Macedonia that I fell in love for the first time, and later had my heart broken. In the same vein, I broke hearts as well. I’ve been the victim of serious theft by a host family member, unwanted kissing, and a stalking. I learned the Cyrillic alphabets of 4 different languages and forgot a lot of my Cuban Spanish. I went to a Jewish wedding in Greece. I rewired my telephone line as well as countless porcelain fuses, however, I was electrocuted in a bathroom just by unplugging a hair dryer. I lived with two chickens inside my apartment who resembled precocious 4 year old boys. I was medevaced for 5 ½ weeks and ended up meeting some of the most generous PCVs from around the world. I finally grew some semblance of a backbone, and learned that it’s okay to be a bitch. During our party in Vinica for the 2003 MTV European Music Awards. These are only a handful of my PC experiences that define who I now am. No matter how big or little they are, they’ve affected me in one way or another. However, I never thought they’d gang up on me in these last couple of months, forcing me into an unwanted mood of…nostalgia. I came to Macedonia when I was 22 and right out of college. I knew nothing, but thought I could do everything. I guess it’s that whole “get-out-and-change-theworld!!” mentality that some new PCVs get sucked into. Volume 4, issue 2 Page 9