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Many people have admired my strength and courage in the last five months , those same people asked me, how do I get through all that without loosing myself in the process, its quite simple really, I had to cope, I had no other choice, my son needed me to stay strong and try as hard as it was to not give up.
I spent many nights praying, crying and begging god to intervene in the situation and I believe that somehow he had his hand on my life and on my son and our situation. What helped me get through was also largely about attitude, I had to just get stuck in and do what needed doing, no ifs, no buts just do it . I could not control cyfs, what I could control was what I did with my anger, my hurt, my frustration and my sadness.I had to allow myself the time to acknowledge my feelings but what matters is what I did with those feelings from there. I wrote letters to my son, I baked, I made beaded jewellery and watches, it really helped those long days and nights by staying busy, doing things with my hands helped me to get through those harder days and nights. You can do this I know its hard but you really can do this.
Believe in yourself
Stand tall
Stand strong
Stand together
Kia Kaha