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But growing ceases to stop, and being acquainted with old age has its troubles.
Your body begins to shag and morph shape into an ungodly scene, but at that
point your health is too serious to pay any attention to your appearance. And af-
ter a brush with death, and a glimpse of the “I.P.H.” (Institute of Preparation for
the Hereafter) (52), you begin to question the very existence of life. My founda-
tion of who I thought I was had fallen to the quake of the unknown. How do
you begin to find answers to something you’re not even sure is real? This quest is
one that questions your faith, exploits your beliefs, and falsifies your truths. You
begin to search for those answers and strain for any evidence, only to find out a
misprint mislead you to what you thought would be a validation of your reality.
In conclusion to this tiresome stride, I found comfort in my present existence. I
accepted the fact that there is no truth but the reality I live in and I believe that
is all the answer I need at the moment. I am sure of who I am at this present
moment, just as I am sure that the sun will rise tomorrow and that the day will
probably be as fine as every other day.
When you stop searching for the answers and accept the truth of the present,
life’s mystery becomes less daunting. I feel that we all experience life through
stages. And the transition from stage to stage is not as clear as black and white,
but rather has shade of grey. Each person you grow into reflects something new
you learned about yourself. It’s the same you, but in a new light. You may know
who you are in one stage and lose yourself in the transition to another, only to
rediscover a new you. To conclude, the ultimate satisfaction of life, is being con-
tent with the unknown parts of yourself, and having “faint hope” that you’ll fig-
ure it out one day.
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